mors_amoris

mors_amoris @ 2006-09-25T16:55:00

2006-09-25T21:06:02Z

Jamie here! I'm just..... I dunno.... joyful.... I guess it's cause....

I statred hormone replacement! That's right! I bet a lot of you didn't know that! I only told Tory and since I've been away with my brother's wife and daughter all summer I wanted to keep it a bit of a secret until it was definite. But you know me, I can't tell everything over the phone..... so call me if you need to.

I feel.... right. I dunno. I just feel happy for the first time in years. Its a start. Its a start.

Damn

2006-09-25T20:54:59Z

Ari here.

Dammit Hellfish! My penis got all screwed up.

Ugh back to schol, rigorous course load. Fuck school. Oh well senior year should roxor my soxors.

Miss camp friends. Wanna go get teavanna. Miss you guys.

The Game

2006-08-28T07:06:59Z

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Hellfish here.

Ari has a terrib;e sense of humor. Spent half an hour putting this in her info. Just thought I'd share.

Otakon

2006-08-26T04:25:21Z

Ariel here. Looks like I've been missing a lot of shit up there. Will have to bring violent ninja weaponry next time I'm up.

anyway, I went to Otakon! It was awesome. There were tons of people dressed up, and all sorts of wonderful, magical things. Giant swords, weapons, a stadium sied hall filled with video games, anime porn, friends..... twas wonderful.So very wonderful. I joined the blue army, saw disappointing anime porn, yelled at yankees fans, saw MUCC..... it was amazing.

I am amazed.

ShoutOut

2006-08-26T04:21:48Z

This is Magdelina Lin, local lesbian. I know some of you over at St. Peters read this so I'm sending out a message. I've heard your planning to do something rather homophobic and destrutive on the anniversary of Michael's death next month.

My aunt is a lawyer in Boston. Head of a big law firm. Has lots of money. And I am telling you now. If you do something, anything, more to try and scare the gay popultaion at this school, not only is it likely that the guys will ambush you at every corner, you will be banned from the Herring, and the private investigators my aunt hires will find out EACH and EVERY one of you that participates, and you will get your legal due for committing hate crimes.

Have a wonderful fucking day.

Pissed

2006-08-26T04:16:15Z

Jake here, in a murderous rage. I don't know why, I just am. Maybe its the stupid assholes from the Catholic school that wrote "fag" all opver the building the other day. Maybe its those stupid police who told us there was nothing they could do about it. Or maybe its the fact that Jamie won't let me leave the room so I can go kick some jock ass. Either that or sodomize them with razor blades.

Jamie here, Jake just went to sleep, I imagine he drank too much. The whole fag thing really bothered a lot of people, especially Tory, whose sleeping in Mag's dorm right now with her and Amy. My theory being Jake only knows how to deal with friend's sadness by beating the people that cause that sadness up. Unfortuantly I have to let him calm down before he goes out and does something he'll regret.

Hellfish here. Making sure Jake doesn't bumrush Jamie and get out of here. However when he calms down, I'm suggesting arson.

Well that's depressing

2006-08-26T04:09:21Z

Tory here. I just felt like venting to everyone, especially since its been a while since we've seen each other, what with it being summer and all.

Its almost been a year since Mikey died. I just realized this, and I'm so depressed right now. And I mean it. God I fucking miss him. Its like that broken heart I had after Kyle, but like fifty trillion times worse because he killed himself.

That summer was the worse ever. We almost lost Ari to suicide, and as soon as she seems like she's gonna pull through, Mikey kills himself, and then I almost did, and Ari almost wen insane trying to save all of us.....

The sad thing was it was SO FUCKING UNECCESARY. I know he came out to his parents and they hated him, but he had to know we all loved him so much. Hell, my parents barely even speak to me anymore cause I'm gay, Alih and Jamie go kicked out of the fucking house and disowned, and they made it. Why the fuck was he so weak willed? I loved him. I still love him. I will never stop fucking loving him and yet I hate him so much it hurts. And sometimes I wish I could just go back in time and go to his house and tell him I love him over and over until he didn't kill himself.

He's not burning in hell. God can't condemn us because of who we love. He can't. And I have to believe in that. I have to believe that Mikey's in heaven right now, finally HAPPY. I hope he knows now that what he was, what I am, isn't dirty. God, he thought he was evil. Did he think I was evil? Did he hate me because I loved him.

I wishI knew what he had been thinking. Oh god I wish I did. I miss him so fucking much, and I'll never forget him and I'll never stop hating the people who did this to him. It's not fair. It's just not.

Oh god, sweetheart, wherever you are now I hope you know I love you.

New Mexico: The Rest

2006-08-26T04:00:37Z

I was sick.

It fucking sucked.

Dammit.

New Mexico: Day 3

2006-06-20T20:32:15Z

Im fucking sick.

Dammit.

Went to have Mexican food at what seemed like a respectable resteraunt last night. Had delicious chimichonga. Very bad idea. Woke up the next day Sick. I've been pucking and having diarhea constantly, and refuse to eat.

This really, really, really, really sucks. I'm stuck in my hotel room all day.

I fucking hate New Mexico.

New Mexico: Day 2

2006-06-19T16:49:11Z

Woke up. Brother took 40 minute shower, as always. Ate breakfest. Quite delicious.

Decided to go to see petroglyphs at lava fields. They're really old scratched pictures on lava rocks. Pretty much suck. I could do better. There's an amusing one with a humungous penis.

Problem was, we went up a really steep trail first. Albuquerque is really high above sea level, and the oxygen is pretty thin up here, which really sucks for those of us with asthma. My mind got really screwy from lack of oxygen. I was so dizzy I nearlt fell of the trail eight times. Twas rather nerve wracking. I don't remember most of it.

Went to aquarium. I like fisheses. They had some awesome stingrays, whichg are like the greatest fish ever.

Went to botanical gardens. I pranced around for hours. Saw a couple garter snakes. Played with soem kids. Awesome.

Then realized New Mexico contains the following animals: poisonous snakes, black widow spiders, tarantulas, scorpions, and killer bees.

I fucking hate New Mexico.

New Mexico: Day 1

2006-06-19T16:38:25Z

Ariel: So None of us have written in this thing for a while, cause we've all been busy with end of year stuff. Now I'm in New Mexico and figured I'd give updates on how much I fucking HATE New mexico.

So I had to get up and leave Alex's early. Sucks.

Finished packing. Sucks more.

Then headed to the airport. We had a guy drive us from a place close to the airport to the airport, who proceeded to drive the whole way with the parking brake on. IN MY CAR. They were smoking. Fuck.

Got to airport. Mom was stupid enough to bring her swiss army knife. Got it confiscated. Whined about being humiliated. Dammit.

Went on LOOOOOOONG plane ride. I fucking hate planes.

Got to New Mexico. Not a bad hotel or room. Slept.

I fucking hate New Mexico.

Sad

2006-06-02T19:49:00Z

Ari: I'm bored. Really bored. I miss my Jake-shaped friend and my Av-shaped friend. And once again I am extraodinarily pissed of at the 'rents but oh well. Lets not go into details..... I guess I'm used to it. It's sad when you have to tell someone to grow up.
It sucks that I'm the only one who isn't in New Hampshire. Damn you all and your closeness! I'm stuck here in New Jersey, with my stupid friend and people I really really hate and a bunch of idiots at North. Freakin' great.
I'm gonna go call Tory now.
Lonely.

Jake's 'Stang

2006-06-02T19:43:01Z

Jamie: Yay! I haven't written in this yet, so this makes me feel all shiny inside! I'm Jamie, and I like pink thinks, and sparkly things, and fuzzy things.....

Av: Ugh, the saccarine is nauseating. Anyway, I believe we were hear to write something, right?

Jamie: Oh yeah! JAKE GOT A MUSTANG!!!!!!!!!!!!

Av: Life is unfair. Though I don't envy him paying those insurance costs. Ouch.

Jamie: Yeah, but he won't let me drive it. :( Sad. He'll let his precious Ariel drive it but nooooo, not me, not the lovable Jamie. Stupid Ari.

Av: Hmph, no dissing the Commodore now. Anyway, he's letting Ari drive it cause she got her license and is a responsible driver. As I recall, you aren't getting you license for a few more weeks now.

Jamie: Yeah, yeah,w/e.

Jake: HA HA HA HA!!!! I have a 'Stang! A sexy black stang. I should get a dragon painted on it or something.

Av: Yeah, that won't cost more than the car, smart one.

BORED!!!!

2006-06-01T23:44:47Z

Tory: Hey, I'm bored. So lesse..... We're at Jake's house after partying all night. Me Jake Tory Av and Ari. Ari goes home tomorrow :( Stupid Jersey! I want my ari back!

Ari: You could just all move to Jersey.

Tory: Yeah right. Anyway there was all sortsa partying and stuff.... I believe we actually finished a Monopoly game! I'm so proud of us! Anyway the others are sleeping, but Ari and I have insomnia.

Ari: I hear sex helps that out.

Tory: we need to find us a bi boy.

Ari: Yeah..... I bet Jake would work if we harassed him enough. Or tied him up.... he needs to relieve stress too often.

Tory: Eh what the hell.... Lets go harass Jake!

Yo

2006-06-01T23:25:30Z

Ari: Yo! Its a journal. Its my journal beitches!

Mags: Don't think thats a word.

Ari: Yeah, f you.

Jake: Language kids. So.... think anyones gonna read this?

Ari: Doubt it. I'll put it upn on my myspace.

Mags: P'shaw. Myspace.

Ari: Shut it. Anyway. Yeah.....

Jake: We're lame.

Ari: Pretty much.